NEw LiFE

Christmas and the New Year are a time of over-spending and over-eating... and just living large. I have been out of sorts of late. Just a little run down I think, but a few days ago I got a virus that came on fast and hard and caught me with my pants down. After going to bed with a fever I woke a few hours later in a state of panic. I really thought that I was dying and had just seconds to live. It was horrific to feel that way. I had Cancer (Melanoma) almost five years ago and my mind was telling me that this is how you feel when your organs are shutting down. It was telling me that my last check up was too long ago and the doctor didn't order a blood test and x-ray for the first time .... maybe that's how the secondary Cancer grew in my body and was about to kill me!! Silly mind. Must be the silly season.

I broke free of this mental state and went outside (very slowly, for I was very dizzy) and tried my best to live. Breathing slowly and inhaling the trees that surround my home. I Breathed in the clouds and the flowers and the love that I have for my three little stars and Melanie. I clapped my hands and stamped my feet (I was off the planet!) and promised to honour myself. It took half an hour or so, but I did come back to earth and I think my temperature came down quite a bit too. And I felt better. MAYBE we should all come back to Earth and bring down the temperature of the globe. It was a quite profound experience for me. Strangely more than the Cancer treatments and surgeries. I have a new respect for life. New Life. The real meaning of Christmas and the New Year. I remembered who I am, and why I am here. It was nice.